Next, may I introduce my family to you? My father has died twelve years ago. that sad day happened when i was 6 years old, i was just a little girl that time but I already knew what it feels to have no man tht will take care of you but it has been years ago. I have accepted it as my faith, only God knows the wisdom of this situation. My mother is a very positive and determined woman. She has not marry to other man after my father death. She works as teacher in our hometown. I also have 3 siblings, including me. Im the middle one. My elder sister is a disabled. now, she is twenty-one years old but her mind just like six years old girl. So, I have to act as the eldest. Sometimes I feel sad and hopeless but I knew I have too. I also have a younger brother. Now, he is fourteen. He studies in MRSM Gerik, hope he does the best there.
My previous school is MRSM Lenggong. A school in the outskirt of town, all green. Sometimes Im bored with it but my friends cheered me up. I have many friends and we always did things together. We also have so many thigs in common such as reading, we like reading. It is also my hobby. Reading is fun like we are in other world. my dream is I want to have a bookshelf that have tons of interesting books can spin to another room in my house where ever im at. It is amazing, right? my book lover side also can be seen when i will be super excited when i get to a library that I never been. Sometimes I read because I want to escape the reality
in my life. Sometimes its hard to find peace and happiness just like in fairy tale, "happily ever after".
I also have a dream in my life and something I really want to do to make my life more happier and better than before. I have listed it, four things. I hope I can do it before I die. Firstly, I want to make peace with my past so it does not spoil my future. That means I have to let go of my past and never look back so I can focus with my future. Secondly, I have to remember what others think of you is none of your business. I am who I am. Never judge me. Next, time heals everything. Give time, some time. I have to be patient in all things, sometimes eager dominate me. Last, I need to smile because not all the problems in this world are mine. I have to be grateful. Many people have bigger problems than me. Thank God :)
Even though I do random things like im eating cereal, the last piece just like 'catch me if you can'. Im waking up in the morning and just said "cant wait to sleep tonight. when i was younger, i put my face close to the fan to hear my robot voice. cant sleep for hours on bed and feel like i suffer insomnia. pretending like the host of a cooking show when im home alone cooking. i hate when people are at my house and asking "Do you have a bathrooom?" and I just like want to answer them "No, we shit in the yard". im also paranoid that i annoy people. i also do not understand many people ask me to hear my heart says, I dont know what 'tumtum' , I AM WHO I AM, NEVER JUDGE ME even once.
